Sunday, July 24, 2011

It's been a while.

So much for writing a blog every month.  Hahaha.  So, I'm going to try to update everything that has been going on during the last 6 months..

3 or 4 months ago Brandon and I moved to sugarhouse.  We love it here even though everything in our appartment seems to be falling apart.  I feel safe here when I am home alone, and that is a big plus.  

I started attending skin science institute in May, and I am expecting to graduate in August 2012.  I found a new job that I really love.  It's called The Kura Door. It's a holistic Japanese day spa.  It is really beautiful, and the job itself is low stress.  I'm so busy between work and school that I don't have a single day off.  That's why day's like today make me so happy.  No work or school on hollidays=)    
Brandon is working at the sugarhouse Tsunami and working on making a video for a non-profit organization.  He is so creative and good at video editing. He is such a dedicated and hard working man.  I am so thankful for all he does. Last night we walked over to Sugarhouse park and had ourselves a little BBQ.  We made shiscabobs, you know, the skewers with lots of meat and yummy stuff.. I can't spell sometimes.. We also roasted corn on the cob and made smores.  It was such a nice and relaxing night off.  It was so fun to spend time with my honey and just relax.  Then we came home and lit off a few fireworks.  I love it when he and I have a day off together.  It is a rare thing, and I treasure the time we get together.

We made a little garden in our house with tomatoes, basil, peppers and mini pumpkins.. We are really excited to watch them grow.

 Luci curled up in her favorite spot

This week we had to take our little girl ferret to the emergency vet in the middle of the night.  We thought she was choking so we rushed her in.  The doctor did xrays and said there wasn't anything stuck in her throat, but there was a massive growth taking up 60% of her abdomin.

We took her to a specialist on friday who said it looked like her spleen, and it would be an easy fix.  So, she went in for surgery.  After the surgery the doctor called and told us they couldn't remove the growth because it wasn't the spleen like they originally thought, but lymphoma. Cancer.. I cried on the phone with the doctor when she mentioned the word euthanasia.  She also mentioned that we can treat her with chemo.  If we were to do the chemo, it would buy Luci 6 months to a year.  We can't afford it. On Saturday morning we went in and picked her up.  She was pretty out of it and has a hard time picking up her back legs. Watching her try to get around makes me sad.  We are gonna do all we can to make her comfortable and happy, and hopefully find some alternative treatment that will prolong her life.
  Cute little Ricky Playing in a blanket by himselfwhile his sister was in for surgery.
 Ricky loves his sister.  He wasn't happy spending the night without her.  He tore his cage apart while she was gone.  When we brought her home and let her roam around for a few minutes, he followed her, and everytime she got tired and layed down he would lay down with his little nose right next to hers.. Normally he would be pouncing on her and teasing her..

She is such a sweet little thing.  The day before we took her in for surgery I layed down on the couch and she curled up on my chest.  Every few minutes she would lift her head up and lick my chin.  When we were sitting at the vet's office, waiting for the doctor to come and take her in for surgery she was snuggled up in my arms, and as i was handing her over to the doctor, she lifted her head up and licked my cheek.  I am so happy I have her.  She brings me joy.  The next few months are going to be a little hard as we play the "wait and see" game with her.  We had been saving money to get married in Hawaii.  We spent it all on her surgery.  I'm just happy we had the money saved so we could get Luci taken care of.
I went to a family dinner and two of my nieces made me cute little cards.  My favorite one reads: Dear Bickie, I'm so svory your wiesl is goind to di, love cassie.  It made me laugh and almost cry at the same time.

I have so many mixed feelings right now.  I'm pretty discouraged that we no longer have anything in savings, and that we won't be able to do what we wanted to do for our wedding.  But I could not have gone to Hawaii and felt good about it had we done nothing for our little Luci.  I feel a little lost.  I don't even know where to begin planning this wedding on NO budget.  I'm thankful for my family offering to do a potluck/openhouse for us.  If anyone has ideas how to do a super cheap non-ghetto wedding, I'm open for suggestions and ideas.

I am planning to run my first race in September.  The dirty dash.  It's a mud run with obsticle courses, and I just learned that I will be doing it by myself.  I'm kind of bummed.  I want people to do it with me.  

I'm trying to work on being less stressed and manage my time more wisely.. I'm trying to find a routine that fits, and It's hard!  I've been feeling overwhelmed.  I know I am stretching myself too thin.  I am happy, and I know I'm lucky. But, I miss my family, and I miss having a life.  I only have to do this for a year.. Thats what keeps me going, knowing there is an end in sight.


  1. Becca!!!! I'm so sorry about Luci. :-( I would have done the exact same thing. At least there is some comfort in knowing she knew she was extremely loved and cared for.
    Let me know if I can help with any of the wedding stuff! Really.

  2. I have read this post before but realized I never commented! But it looks like it is time for a new blog post! :-D