As the holliday season wraps up, I feel like I have been so incredibly blessed in life. I struggled a lot in 2010, but I feel like I came out of it as a stronger person.
Another thing that I have struggled with for years is my health and my weight. After a bout with some medications (for sleep) that really messed my body up I put on 90lbs in just a short period of time. For a long time I didn't want to see anyone I know because I felt embarrassed and ashamed about the way I looked. Growing up I put a lot of self worth on appearances. I crossed paths with anorexia, but thats a whole other story.. Anyway, Brandon came back into my life this year (Which is by far the best thing in 2010), and he loved me despite the way I look. He has been a huge inspiration in my life, and has helped me get motivated to get healthy again. I dropped 38lbs in 2010 and My goal is to drop 52lbs more before my wedding. I'm really excited to get back in shape. There are so many things that I want to do that I haven't been able to do the last few years. Like, hiking, going to the beach, running a half marathon, letting people take my picture.. Yeah, I'm looking forward to it all. 2010 has completly changed my perspective on life. I feel like I have become much more of a positive person than I was before. I feel happy.
OH.. We are thinking the wedding date will be the first weekend in August. It's not set in stone yet.. But we are starting to look into locations. If you have any ideas where we can have a reception super cheap, i'm open to suggestions. Also, I'm still looking for a part time job to do nights and weekends to help save up for the wedding, so If you hear of anything please let me know=)
I started the year off going into web design at school, only to find out two semesters in that I hate it and I don't want a desk job for the rest of my life. So I am taking a huge leap into something new. On January 10th I will be starting the esthetics program at school. I am really excited. It is something I will enjoy doing.
In 2011 I am going to try to write a blog at least once a month,
And I am going to make an effort to do more photography. So, if you feel like being my subject, I am always willing to shoot=)
This year a my nieces and nephew(Heidi, Erin, Josh and Emily) lost their dad. It was so hard to see them go through what they did. I am continually amazed at the strenght they have shown through the whole ordeal.
Their dad, Dave, He was a good guy. He lost his way a long time ago. I felt so sad for him because I can honestly say, I know what it feels like to go through some of the dark times he was in at the end, and while I didn't struggle with alcohol addiction, I know what rock bottom feels like. I know he is happy now where he is. I truely feel like he was rescued from time of suffering. I am also glad my sister left him when she did. I love to see the happieness that her life has brought to her, and I am thankful for her other 5 kids that came along since then.
My parents do so much for me. Mom is so selfless. I have never seen someone who can spot a person in need the way my mom can. She comes to anyones rescue that needs help. While I am so thankful for all Mom does, I would like to see her kick back and relax. I would love to see other people waiting on her for a change. She deserves it. I feel like I am closer to my dad now than I have ever been. One of my resolutions for 2010 was to get closer to Dad. I'm going to continue with that one again this year.
I have been blessed with 6 sisters in my life, all of whom are my best friends.
I am thankful for you Care. You always been my buddy. You have always made me feel like I am someone important. I love spending time with you and your family. We always have a blast laughing and eating. I remember how much it meant to me when you hung out with me in California, and when you met me in Las Vegas.
Angie(Sorry.. I know you like Angela, but you have always been Ang to me). You are so sweet and kind. You have always been one to comfort me when I was sad. I love your sense of humor. Thank you for helping me with all my sewing projects. One day I will get my own sewing machine. =)
Jenny, I really miss you. I want to make an effort to call you more. I remember when you were going to Cosmotology School and you would always bring home the neatest hair and make-up stuff. While you were off doing your thing I would sneak into your room, sit at your vanity, do my hair and crank up your stereo. Haha. I don't know if I ever told you that, but I knew at the time I would be dead meat if you caught me=)
Leslie, You are super duper smart. You are so thoughtful and considerate. You make an effort to do nice things for people, and I know from experience that your kindness heals people. I always love when we go do fun stuff like go to big lots and go to movies. My life is better because you are in it.
Chris, Thank you for letting me live with you. I miss hanging out with you and our late night talks and our attempts to walk Buddy as he tripped us all the way around the block.. You are such a good mom. I really look up to you in a lot of ways.
Bridget, You are one of the funniest people alive. I love hanging out with you and goofing off. I remember when we were younger and we would stay up late laughing until we cried. I miss having you close so we can hang out more.
And Benj, Even though you aren't my sister, I won't leave you out. I'm glad you are doing well with your recovery. You are a talented person. I would love to see you put your talents to work. I'm glad you didn't listen to dad when he said you couldn't get a dog. Duke is so sweet.
Maren, You may not be my sister, but you may as well be. You have been my best and truest friend. You are the only friend I have gone a year and a half with out talking to, then we get together and pick right back up where we left off without skipping a beat.(Except for Brandon of course.. We went for a long time without talking too.. and now we are getting married!! woot)